i have another blog. but i stupidly listed my name there and cant be as honest as i would like to be. here i will stay anonymous and therefore say whatever i want, hopefully without reprisals. well, at least without reprisals from anyone who knows me.
i am a mess. you probably would never know it if you first met me. i am a white jewish middle aged woman. prob, at first glance, the only thing that might indicate that im not the happiest camper in the world is my weight. i am 5'4" tall and weigh 220 lbs. my weight has been a battle since childhood, and i dearsay, will be the rest of my life.
other than that, i think people think my lifes wonderful. i have a huband and daughter and live in a luxory apt building. my husband and i (and daughter) are intelligent. we both work and together we make a pretty good salary.
yea, well, all thats just hunky dory. and yet, i am miserable.
why, you ask.
well, people make me miserable. thats right. people. if i am by myself, i eat, sleep, and watch tv. i might do some chores (and i might not-thats one of my problems.) but get me out into the freakin world, and im miserable. why you ask.
well, let me start with my inlaws. they are in town now, sadly. leaving tomorrow, gladly. i know them for 18 years. 18 years! thats a loooong time, dont you think. thats how long my husband and i know each other. in a couple of months we will be married 11 years.
his fuckin' mother has given me hell since day one. really. shes a bitch. you would never know it from looking at her. you would think shes a wonderful person. well, you would be wrong. oh, im winded. i will continue this another time.
